waiting on a sign from god or a nod from hell

yesterday i was such a lazy ass, sore and tired. my big plans turned into going to the market and taking a nap while watching charmed? yeah i duno, never watched it before, was sorta lost, would rather watch buffy, damn you go sarah michelle. went to joels and he helped me study a bit. we went out to dinner at rosco's, took PCH down, it was a nice drive, talked all night long, busted out some limp bizket. i ordered so much more than him, i felt like such a fat kid, but it was so damn good. was so damn happy. one of the dudes at the front asked me if i was on a date and if not if he could 'get my number to holler at me' cos im a 'fine ass white girl' ahaha. came back, watched the hills have eyes and i passed out. woke up to everyone rollin in so we built a fire in the pit and kicked it.
what was suppost to not be a date, pretty much turned into a date. guess he finally tricked me into goin with him. and you know what, i kinda liked it.

looks like even when i try and sleep in, not happenin. ima hit the gym today and study. that is, after i muster up the strangth to even move. call the fun police, we might have an overdose.

saturday: got new heels, red stilettos and 4in high boots, who woulda thought. boring night, momo picked me up and made me go to sushi. weird but good night.

sunday: work aka real world val surf, and office holiday party. fun times, love who i work with. we all get along and drink wonderfully together. val fam.

monday: chase, andrew and me rolled out to mtn high early early. so much fucking fun, we had such a good day. the mountain wasn't that bad, though i don't want to look at the bottom of my board, sorta crowded at noon though. andy and q were up there, hung out for a sec. i mostly just booked it down the mountain, hit like 2 rails all day. chase found a dope video camera in the snow, so i filmed them and me ahah. i should go pro, i got some sick angles. drive up and down was funny as shit too, ahah, good times. then i had to book it to fucking SCHOOL where i was so fucking tired, had 20 minutes to change and get there, not even shower. got out early, came home, ate, bubble bathed it and passed outt.

today: just realized my alarm went off an hour early, my body hurts so fucking bad and im still so tired. its 8 am and i want togos, got work, waxing my board and buying new bindings, next getting the ride board.

wednesday: i want to make it up to MH, but i gotta studyyyyy for my final block test thursday. think im goin up in the morning back by after noon cos joels helping me study after work and we're going to roscoes for dinner in LA.

k, later.

i got less than 3 hours of sleep and had 10 minutes to make it to class this morning.
had extraction event today. brought in a crashed car and a fire truck came, they put me in and cut the door off, axed the windows to cut it into a convertable, used the jaws of life, bolt cut the stearing wheel, shit was scary. i couldn't see, just heard everything, glass all over my legs, cutting me, it was intense. and we triaged a mock mci. shit was fun, minus the wind and still being drunk upon arrival to class.
i guess you kinda had to be there, or actually be intrested, shit just gets me super stoked.

tonight joel took me mo mo and meghan to m. jackson's nephew's 22nd birthday in some dope rented out hollywood club. i met so many people, pharell, the yellowcard dude...again, the makers of bape, some skate dudes on my shit and some straight sothern boyz, god knows who else. i had soo0o0o0 much fun, mmm jack and coke. i gott srsly bummed out talking to a dude from SC, wanting to go home, talkin bout gritz and corn bread, we was gunna go to rosco's but i have shit at 8 tomorrow, bummer. of course i find the ghettoest people there and all they can think is 'damn this white girls crraazeey'. oh and miss jackson if youre nasty was shitshitttt faced out her damn mind getin down and dirty to r. kelly. ahahahahhahaahahahah
we got hoooooked up, straight vip.
it was such a great fucking night, man, so good.

i haven't seen my bestie in forever so we went shopping and had sushi date. i got the following:




only with 1/2 white sole, white toe top and swoosh

it was quite the day, no idea why i have friends. i have more money than i thought i had and i get paid friday so, i got money in the bank, shorty what you drink. im making a christmas list for myself, yay me. now im watching elf and when candy cane lane is up me and m-tine are rollin with hot chocolate and blankets in the g ride.

and apparently i have a date saturday...
i've contemplated calling it off about 18 times, but always come down to 'fuck it, why not'. i need to stop over thinking and just go with things for once. i've shut everything and everyone down for over a year, tis the season...

the wind should stop, though.

busy busy busy. i've been running off lost energy drinks that i burp up every 10 minutes. thanksgiving went to grandmas for some ol southern style food, i was in heaven which i def took all the left overs to. it was good to see my hick family again and catch up, talk about horror stories and blowing shit up while my uncle showed off pictures of the huge buck he shot and skinned. friday went out with people from work, good times, at least no one almost fell in the fire this time. and me and meghan got desperate for drinking games so we made one up using a scorpian paper weight. after work i got my new furniture in and dad played drug dealer as i helped the drunkies and friends play the newly wed board game.
most people from work are in mexico, which i should be too, oh but i had to have school. but visits at work get me through the day and 'i just had to pick some stuff up'
apparently my dad lost his phone today so i offered up mine in exchange for him buying me a new phone


and i guess once again i'm completely oblivious to male feelings until they spell it out. even then, not completely won over.

im having fun though.

my 10 hour emergancy room clinical turned into almost 13 hours of work, and i loved every second of it. when i first walked in, the head nurse was a bitch, but when she saw i wasn't a joke she shut up. i met a lot of different people, and made a connections. lots of vitals, ekg's, bandaging, spliting, iv's, cleaning up patients, crazy people, criminals, drunks, and a cardiac arrest. i brought back a 91 year old lady in cardiac arrest from death. even though she was unresponsive, she was looking dead into my eyes the whole time, and when her vitals came up they followed me when i was doing after care. what a rush. i'll never forget it.
i love my job. i'm doing everything i want to do right now and im so happy and proud that i've never let anything get in my way.

i was gone for a minute but im back with the jump off....
been busy, doin big things.
work, school, play, sleep.

works been good, i get paid to talk about 'siq boards' and 'bomb gear' and hang out, not to mention ride everywhere for free or discounted. schools chill, tomorrow i work the emergancy room 10 hours, kinda nervous at whats gunna be thrown at me. this weekend was dope, hung out with some people from work, fire pit friday, saturday went to the bar for free drinks all night. last night i passed out when i got off work and woke up to book it to the beach. waves not so good, but it was 81 and i took a sweet nap. way home stopped off on a clif just to watch the ocean. so peaceful, listening to some peter tosh. def turning into a huge hippie. love it.

lately been over old bullshit, lettin shit roll off like water on a duck, type shit. seems like everyone cares so much about the wrong things. everyone should stop getting so worked up with the hate and shit talking and just chill out and smoke weed.

duno bro, lifes chill as hell right now.